Rest In Peace

Me and my big mouth are back reflecting on the world and all its faults. These are heavy times for me. My former blockmate and friend has just passed away and I can't do anything but feel bad for many reasons.

I feel bad that she just disappeared without anyone's notice. It seemed like she was just around a few weeks and the next thing you know, daisies were pushed.

I feel bad that I felt numb after hearing about it. Do I not feel sympathy for the close people in her life? Do I not feel regret for not having said goodbye? Do I not feel sorrow for having lost someone so distant yet so close in my life?

I feel bad that I have other priorities to deal with. I feel helpless that I can't do anything about it and because of this I feel uneasy doing my usual tasks.

I feel bad that I have to feel bad in general.

I feel happy because she happened and I was a part of it as well as many other people.

I feel happy because she's in a better place, away from the cruel world she once knew.

I feel happy because I need to. My Law teacher always said that nothing is accomplished when you feel bad about yourself.

I feel happy because I always get over it. Time is the best medicine.

We often rush ourselves; forgetting all the little things that we pass by. Life is always in motion and no one will wait for you. Everything continues no matter how many times you attempt to pause it. For me, the beauty of life lies in its continuity; in that it doesn't give a damn about anything and just moves on for the sake of itself.

Rest in peace Pauline Ann Prudencio. You will be missed, remembered, and cherished while we continue, move on, and smile.